Thursday October 29th

Another day in the ICU. I sit and feel so much anguish with the situation that we have been so abruptly put in. I look around and see how many others are dealing with their own pain and loss. Different situations, different circumstances but we are all feeling and expressing the pain we feel with having loved ones fighting for their lives. Life feels so unfair right now.

Everyday we continue to face new challenges and many of the same. More tests continue to be run in hopes of finding the strain of bacteria that is infecting our sweet mom. Her white blood cell count was down today to 29,000. Still very high but less than yesterday. The doctors say that is only a clear indicator of improvement if it continues to be a trend over the next few days. Her fever has been down a little today which is wonderful. It just doesn't seem right to have a cold fan blowing on her when it is snowing outside.

Really this is a true test of patience and perseverance. We hope everyday for that glimmer of hope, a breakthrough so that we know that we have really passed the worst. There is really no way to know what challenges we will be presented with next. The only thing that I know for certain at this point is that no outcome to this situation is going to be easy. No matter what happens, it's going to be hard.